06:54 pm - Panic attacks
Oh, panic attacks! Something I don't have time for and something I can't begin to deal with.
But this one just keeps going on, and I can't seem to stop shaking, but I've got two exams to study for and a paper to write, all by tomorrow (paper is due Tuesday, but no time to write it tomorrow).
This semester has just about defeated me. My grades suck, my ability to remain cheerful is null and void, and all Iwant to do lately is curl into a ball and sob. It gets harder and harder to leave Ed to go back to Point and I'm starting to wonder if all of those work towards my degree is seriously worth it.
I'm so close now, I'm going to finish, but it doens't make the doubts stop.
I just need to relax, I need these mid-terms to be over, and I need a vacation. A few days of not worrying about my faling grades and my stress. Graduation creeps ever closer, and as much as I yearn for it, I want to run from it as well.
Just a month and a half left of this semester, Amber. You can do it, you've got no choice.
Then I'll need to start looking for a real job.
Oh gawd, I'm not ready for life yet.
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Current Music: 'Breaking Free' High School Musical
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